sharing is caring? or hating?
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I like nonsense - it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope... and that enables you to laugh at all of life's realities.
- Dr Seuss

I donnoe of what to put here, so quotes even i don't understand will be betterrrr.well, ma problem uh."
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Monday, May 4, 2009
its over. 9:53 AM

May Peace Be Upon To You.

aft much thought, i really hv to pour thing out.
hmm.
k, i dont wanna introduce maself.
seriously,i hate ppl knowing the REAL me.
keyword:real

I HOPE NO 1 I KNOW WILL READ THIS BLOG. *cross fingers*

ma latest problem is ma friendship with Nadli.
we've known each other for 1 mth minus 3 days.through ma cuzz,Arif (same age with me)
Nad waited for 1 whole wk to get ma num,aother words,to get ''green light '' frm me.
s when cuzzie told me bout a guy who wants to know me,it ws on 1st april.
so i thought, it ws a joke.n i ignord him.
n the following wk,arif txt me again ..''believe me nw.?"
so i agreed aft askin damn loads of qns.
haha
ive alr made it straight tht im gonna take it s friends.
keyword:friends.
why.? kos i don wanna disappoint me parents.
they r putting hopes on me.

then,1 day,ma parents, got to know bout this,sorta force me to END the friendship.
sad. i really2 appreciate the frnship i had with this guy.
actually at 1st. parents used to say..''friendship is ok''
soon it ws..''y must it b with him?''
n nw is..''i dont like u knowing arif's frn.why?why must it b him?''
n s expectd, i aint hv any ans to tht.
for a few days straight, the topic, me mum will lect me on is bout ma frnship with nad.
she even threatend me, she said, she'll call arif n scold him.
i dont want arif to get involve,since its me who agrees to this frnship.
i always told maself,frns n sibs..'' its better to keep quiet,thts the best" in mly.
so, i didnt say a thing.nt even a word.
m i weak.?or m i respecting me parents

nadli is a fun guy,as a friend,i swear.
he makes u laugh as early as 2-3 in the morn.
he knows hw to entertain ppl.
its like a must to laugh when u r talkin to him.
thus i really treasure it.

then,2 days ago,
he told me tht sometimes when he's talkin to me, he sorta heard me say ''b''
i guess its the short for ''baby/hubby'' i think. iono. which ever i think it is la.
n i didnt said tht. but i think it smhw bothers him.
s the day b4 he ask me, he txt me,'' i wanna ask u a qn, but im shy''-sth like tht la.
he kept it for 2 days, or god knows hw long since its been almost a mth alr since we knew each other.
but i swear i didnt say tht.serious.

n he ask ''when do u think we cn meet.?"
he hs been askin me out. like watch him prac his dance.
follow him to his godsister's birthday party.
things like tht.
at 1st i thought y nt right.?he's ma frn niwae.
but then,everytime he ask me out, i alr hv plns.
so i thought mayb,just mayb,i shdnt meet him.
so i replied..''what will u do/say if i say ''its better if we dont meet'' ?''
he said sth like, he wldnt hv a choice.s he always agrees to a gerl's decision.
fad: so u reaspect it la.?hmm. ic ic
nad: but y sey u.?
i told him i hv many reasons to tht.

he is disappointed i think.
n for the 1st time, he didnt msg me for the whole day.
today is the 2nd.hmm

well. i think he realises tht he's wasting his time on me.
n im glad he realised it alr.
he simply made ma job easy by nt tellin him sth like. ''lets end this frnship''
been wantingto ask him bout ending this frnship thing 3 days ago.
but i guess if some1 said tht to u, u'll b offendd. so i didnt.

k 1 prob down.

BUT. im sooooooo used to have ma phone ringing with his calls/msges.
aigoo.for frnship is this tough.
i wonder hw u guys suffer for BGR.
haha. oh wells.

i kept tellin maself..
''look on the bright side, ur parents wont hv to lecture u on this frnship"
"u get to safe ur bills"-not
"u will hv gd relationship with ur parents.."

umhmm.
every single thing remins me of him.
stupid me!
its irritating!

oh wells.
okay.
till then
wansuey
-blacklips

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