sharing is caring? or hating?
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I like nonsense - it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope... and that enables you to laugh at all of life's realities.
- Dr Seuss

I donnoe of what to put here, so quotes even i don't understand will be betterrrr.well, ma problem uh."
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Friday, June 5, 2009
7:24 PM

May Peace Be Upon To You.

woah, its been long ya.
why?
this wk ws VERY, EXTREMELY packed with exams!
i hd 3 ICAs=exams.
2 in thurs, and 1 on fri.
i updat by wk uh.
hmm

mon.
i actually cldnt rmbr wad actually hapen.
except tht i reach sch early thinking i hd nursing lab practice.
but it ws actually exams for some students. so i just sat thr to give support.!(:
n Luqman ws 1 of them.
he ws effing nervous.
kept on calming him down, told him to selawat a lil.
test him.
(but during ma turn, which is on fri, HE SAID I WS IRRITATING! hw sad cn i be.?)
i ws pissed.!
then we hd 3 hrs break if im nt wrong.then 2 hrs of lecture.
done.stayd bck aft sch to study.

tues.
erm, lets see.
i. dont. remember. heh

wed.
went for Violin prac. Wan is willing to lend me his violin,vivi.
its with me right nw.(:
i aint hv money to buy A VIOLIN. pathetic. i. know.
ws fun, learn new songs, pieces.

thurs.
MA LAB EXAM!
freaking nervous IDK why!
i ws trembling/shaking.
im directly after Sheikh.

side track a lil. i hv to admit. the eye cndy feeling is kinda fading.slowly, but surely.
whichi think its gd, or else,i wont be able to do anything!!! -.-
but we do TALK and CRAP nw.(:

so, yeah, he ws laughing at me for being so nervous.
i really hoped i gt catheterization for ma assessment.
n YES i gt wot i want! yey for me.!

2 mins aft sheikh went in, the call me. "siti fadilah"
went in, sw Sheikh, n he ws smiling at me.!haha.even b4 entering the rm, last person he laid his eyes on ws me.LOL.*shakes heaD*
shwd him a relieved n excitd face aft geting ma scenario!
he borrowd ma pen.-.-

start ma assessment.
it ws a TOTAL embarrassment!
the assessor talks LOUDLY! everybody in tht rm cld hear wot she askd me!
n they said ma voice ws loud too. but tht ws like the softest i cn go.LOL.

FINALLY i mng to ans her!i ws pissed at tht time.
hmm.

went out, Sheikh ws thr, with Rachel.
we talkd n talkd.
n he askd bout ma family. i ws like. o.O
Luqman, being ma classmates for like 1 yr plus hv NVR ask those qns.
so i just ansd bck.
topic bout BF came. Rachel joind in the convo.
i realise he brokd off wif his gf.
i think its bcoz of his parent. ok idk.

relief.? no! im nt. kos he no longer my eye candy. s in the feeling is nt tht strong.
if he's reading this, gd luck to me.
n if he ask me, ill say yes. "yes, u were ma eye candy. for more than a yr.(:"
truth is better than lying.yes?

so, rachel were asking why i dont hv a bf.aft i said no to sheikh.
ma ans: i wld like tht guy to respect me.
rachel: huh?why? wad do u mean? every guy respects a gurl wad.
fad: i mean, we muslims cannot like touch each other...i know wads right n wads wrong.
sheikh: *explains,continue frm whr i stop.*

rachel continues asking me why i wear headscarf.
i ws trained. since young. so im like use to it. yeap.
she thought i use headscarf koz i thought i lookd ugly without em.
hahhahaha. which is a no. they, ma classmates, prefer me without headscarf..
but too bad for em. i want to wear it!

for me right..im a muslim. so im kinda strict with the rights n wrongs.
like some are unavoidable. but skin cntct with the opp sex is avoidable.
so yeah.thts me. n ma ex ws like into hugging,touching, holding hands.
i felt really uncomfortable.SIMPLY BECAUSE WE ARE MUSLIMS.yes.
so, for his own gd,s i know guys hv their "needs" i end the relationship.
i felt relief aft tht.

rachel askd sheikh.
he ws like, why every gurl ask me tht qn.i went -.- i didnt.
LOL

askd for ma help to tap his card,for attendance.
i ws nt willing. but since he promised to come, i helpd him.
and he askd for ma number with the reason tht he is close to me.
i ws like. ok. u r ma classmate, so why nt.(:
exchg no. i realise i hv his num in ma cntct.
n i went: eh? i hv ur number?
n tht ws supposed to me in ma mind!-.-
he ws like. u guys spread ma number or wad.?
i tried to xplain.incase he mistook it.

yeap, bid gd bye.
then when i reachd lib to play games.LOL
i received a msg frm him.
HE PRAISES ME BIG TIME.
ma face become superbly hot.LOL
3 straight msges.-.-" nt proud, but i thank allah for who i am nw.
told him to stop it b4 i start ironing ma clothes.LOL

fri.
the 1st person to txt me:sheikh.
yeap.
im kinda weak tday aft 4 days of insufficient sleep.LOL.
so yeap, we still crap. laughin at our lecturer n her videos.

he wishd me for ma test.thankd n left.

oh ya.
i woke up at 5.15 am.
i FELL ASLEEP yesterday. n i hv test tday!
i panicked BIG time!
*shake head*
so studied for a few mins, fell asleep, woke up again at 6.15 to get ready to sch.
hmm. then came the time for ICA.
i ws actually aiming for a C, which i thought ill get D.
LOL. in the end, i gt B! i ws v.happy.
thanks to allah. seriously.!
THANKS ALLAH!

sch end at 11 tday. so met up with siti n arisa. ma gfs!!!!!!
talkd like mad, especially siti.
SITI, IM SRY IF U R READING THIS, BUT I THINK U R KINDA GREEDY.
u cant hv 2 guys at 1 go.hmm.
left at ard 5, as arisa hv CCA.

yeap. thats basically it.

till then
-blacklips.

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