May Peace Be Upon To You.
the girl tht usually nt sastified with me kept saying..
"we is the friends foreverxzxzxz"
haha.
i hope we can.
(: "new friend"
and yesterday, Mr.eye candy is super gd looking.
we wore formal.
even Ama melts.
HAHA. gosh!
subahanallah
hearing "may peace be upon to you" frm him sounds like music.
okay, im exaggerating.LOL
gt presentatio tml.
wish me luck
oh allah, gimme the bravery and confidence to face tml presentation.
amin!
-blacklips
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
at first i thought ma eye candy is some1 diff.
diff frm other guys.
yeap. but it turn out to b the same.
frm the way he acts, i KNEW tht he loves attention!!
and aft knowing tht some1 actually asks bout him,
and guess wad.? he actually ask repeatedly.
i ws like okaaay.. nt expecting tht.hmm
i think i shd stop having him as ma eye candy.
seriously.
and, ma calssmate told me this.
"hey! ur eye candy uh, hv looks but no brain." -it hurts even by listenin to it. i ws like..hmm
then she suddenlychg her phrase...
"not no brain la...."
i ws like.. u no need to explain.
ma dad's nose bleeds when i reachd sch.
i panicked a lil.
he's been complainin of migraine and nw nose bleed.?
hmm.
i dont think its brain tumor though.
aigoo.. kowaii neh!
talkd like mad with luqman, MY BROTHER.
we brothers for life. haha. amin!
we were sharing ALOT OF STUFFS.
updating each other bout our attatchmnt. experience. etc.
GOSSIPS. yes, luqman is a guy. but he gossips oso la.
*chuckle*
and i ws known as "the black scarf girl"
i didnt know tht the lecture theatre realise i exist.
luqman told me tht everytime ppl see him during attatchmnt, they will go..
"hey u r the one with the black scarf girl right?"
n i ws surprised when some actually wants to join us.
like be our brothers. join us.
those ppl actually said me n luqman look like bunch of fun ppl.
HAHA.
i realise, ppl tend to realise tht im ard when i dont want em to.
since i ws in primary sch.
ppl idk will know me. hmm
this is bad.
i hope sch will be much more interesting.
pray for me tml.
i hv pharmacology presentation!!
and its only the 2nd day of sch tml!! -.-
oh wells. cabaran.hah.
oh allah, pls gimme the confidence.!
amin!
wansuey
-blacklips
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May Peace BE Upon To You.
oh one more thing,
Adeline, Jess, Sandhya.. (ma current classmates)
they've been askin why i am not as "talkative" as i am during ma attatchmnts.
does tht mean they prefer the other me.
jess was like "she hv split personality"
do i really hv tht.?
ma heart says 50-50.
i am who i am. its just the atmosphere,environmnt,the ppl im with chges ma behaviour.
well i hope sch will be an interesting place to study.
oh Allah,
gimme the bravey, initiative and confidence facing the days to come.
amin!
kk. really gtg.
till then
wansuey
-blacklips
May Peace Be Upon To You.
well, this happened last year.
ma work mate askd me somthing related to a EX classmate of mine.
yeap. n at tht pt of time i ws wondering how the hell he knew bout it.
then i realised...
" hey, this guy is extremely close to her, ofcourse she MIGHT hv told him things."
this particular guy insisted on askin me. he wants to know the whole story.
n i ws like.. " well, its over, no pt debating/talking bout it."
b4 tht, i askd him hw he knew.
and all he said was, "hv la"
if its not ma EX classmate who told him things, it must be some1 whom i trust the most in the grp.
ma wrk mate oso.
oh wells.
ah, sch starting soon.
imma go dress up.
till then
wansuey
-blacklips
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
-witnessed a vaginal delivery
-witnessed an accident(hit by a bus)
-ma dad's friend passed away due to H1N1
-ma dad's cousin's father in law passed away.
-sch starts tml (n i hate it)
-ma jaw is getting rusty. (loud sound s if it crack tht day. hurt like mad!)
wansuey
-blacklips
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
even though you are nt the one tht person ws refering to,
the words and sacarsms do hurt just by reading.
so, tht person is.... wadever u think tht person is.
wansuey
-blacklips
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
ma siblings were tlkng bout marriage tht day.
and mom say i CANNOT get married.
i ws like why.? well who doesnt want to.?-.-
then she say i hv to take care of her.
for once. i belive tht mum trust me.
im the 1 she chose to take care of her.
and if tht happen to be my future, i think i might accept tht.
living with the love of ma family.
just
family.
hmm.
smhw sad.
-blacklips.
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
no matter wad the saying says/goes.
friends will never be there for you.
they are bunch of buzy ppl too.
haha.
so nw im all alone.
mum's been blaming me for both of ma lil bro's failure.
the only problem is that i think mum shd nvr pampered him in the begining.
at least he will not be as slow as nw.
mum shd hv treat them like hw she treatd me when i ws in k2 (6 yrs old).
hitting, scolding for failing but teaching as well.
yeap. tht is wad shd hv been done.
see wad happens nw.?
both ma lil bros is very rude to us, their older sisters.
and also, expecting answers than asking hw to figure em out.
i just gt scoldings frm mum.
bro, gave up within minutes, askd his classmates for answers.
well, if mum allow tht, and if he faild, im not to blame.
but i know thts impossible.
*shakes head*
another thing tht adds up to my alr piling up problems.
thanks world for the treatment.
thanks so much.
smhw im looking fwd for ma death day.
been askin for it.
its against ma religion.
we were told to remember death, not asking for it.
but im tired of waiting and tolerating.
wansuey
-blacklips
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May Peace BE Upon To You.
this, have been breakin ma heart.(mind ma eng)
"thelpk-sblah-lot-kiddiesgathering.hahahaha.it was awesome.altho at first,my inside told me thatits gg to be a disappointing nite.but at last,it was not.we didnt really laugh as much as we used too.cos its obvious thateveryone was akward.it has been super loongsince everyone met each other.i must say.i was satisfied.all the emails, msns, and textsworth it.for the 1st time,it was a complete set.yes complete set.everyone was there.amir. haziq. azzy. mclove. ron. aim.helena. jeyda. shid. zul. me.C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E.happy pe aku.ok next round.old + new clans.populars.mard&aisha trip.all of this,i have to hail.if not,the train wont move.trust me."
from fira blog.
i ws hurt.
complete gathering ya.?
i ws part of digiphoto too.. but why wsnt i invitd.?
i felt like crying the mmt i gt to know bout this gathering.
its better nnot to know tha to knoe.. because we humans simply pretend -haziq.
haiz. ppl simply dont rmbr me.
i think i shd b the old me. evil.sacarstic etc.
so even though im gone, ppl will still remember the bitch, me.
i think i shd make a promise NOT TO SOCIALIZE WITH EM ANYMORE.
ignore msgs etc. i really think i shd pull maself out.
seriously. i cldnt find a reson why i shdnt.
hmm.
future gatherings.. (raya, digi gatherings.etc)
imma disappear. shd i delete their numbers.?hmm.
still considering..oh wells.
gd bye fellow digi mates. its been FUN for me knowing u guys.
idk if u guys still rmbr me.wadever it is.
thanks for wasting ur time with me.
*starts crying*
-blacklips
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
thanks world..for making me feel soo demoralize.
thanks. thanks sooo much.
imma end la life soon.
expect a last entry from
blacklips
-blacklips
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" YOU at HIGHER risk of MAJOR depression"
adeline: i know. i can see tht.
aigoo. after knowing this, it gives an impact ya know.
im nw worrying bout it.):
btw, WE shd NVR put HIGH hopes on our significant other.
be t a guy or a gal. serious shit.
incase of emergency ya know.
but, ma dear bestfriend siti, she put high hopes on this guy.
she dont really kno this guy. ive heard some thing bout this guy.
he is/ws (idk) Mr.bad guy.
reading er blog made me wanna puke. nt because of her relationship.
its just tht im not used with all this mushy(spell) stuffs.
another thing is tht she is a muslim.
so, she must know her limits.
i know no one cn force u to wear hijab, but u MUST know ur limits uh.
all this kissing n stuffs.
YOU ARE ATILL A MUSLIM YA KNOW.
so, yeah. i know. its sort of ma responsibility to tell em since i know.
but lookin at ma position. she will go -.-
oh wells.... ):
really sad to hv friends who terlampau memuja her boyfriend.
sad isnt it.?
major depression
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ahh.
till then
wansuey.
-blacklips.
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
my hidden self: Anthropophobia-blacklips
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May Peace Be Upon To You.
You are black! You are probably an introverted, indifferent sort of person. You aren't necessarily emo or really hateful, though you can be. You just aren't bubbly and happy all the time like yellows, oranges, and pinks. In fact, you probably have a hard time putting up with people who ARE happy all of the time. You are probably intelligent and artistic, and maybe a little bit of a loner. You do have friends, you just don't mind being alone. Gives you time to think. You are a little blunt, and you usually tell it like it is. You are classy, and simplicity goes a long way with you. You can be a little off-beat, your interests may not go with "the norm". As for your friends, you love them deeply. You may not have many close friends, but you choose them carefully. You are incredibly loyal to your friends, and they know they can count on you. You'd do just about anything for them, and they know it. You probably don't show your feelings so much, but you do have feelings. Deep ones, too. You feel things deeply, and you can be passionate - you just don't show it. Your sense of humor is probably a little dark, but you do love to laugh. You can be totally crazy when you open up, but you rarely do. You, in a nutshell: Classy, introverted, loyal, a bit of a loner, unique, edgy, deep, artistic, crazy (rarely), intelligent. BLACK!
i know therefore i am.(:
wansuey
-blacklips
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